The Beloved is a war-torn veteran, who is looking for a new peaceful life far from the battlefield. The war has torn him so much that he became loner, rather paranoid and develops a rare obsession about data…an effect called Combat Fatigue. He try so hard to cure this with a little effect because…..sadly….the war always looking for him

The Beloved is a pacifist; always try to avoid conflict with anyone or anything. If everything can be solved with a diplomatic way, he prefers to do it rather than an open frontal way. He always tried to maintain balance & his neutrality. However, this doesn’t mean he can’t fight…he just don’t want to. The Beloved can be your most truthful friend who will die for you & your cause and The Beloved can be your worst enemy who will make sure you suffer & die smoothly.

Some says The Beloved were frightening. This is due his nature as a shell for something he doesn’t want to reveal. He always says that his purpose of life is to seal something, and he is quite ready to be called back (that how he described death). He also says that he just waiting his visa to be signed.

The Beloved was a family man. He will protect and care his beloved one to the death even beyond it because, for him that is what remains from his belonging. He says we can buy house, we can acquired wealth, we can takeover a nation, but a good happy family is a gift from God and to maintain it is one hell of a job.

The Beloved now were looking for someone who will succeed him.He just wants to pass his knowledge.He himself feel that he is growing too old and need to settle down continuing life as it is.His days are now counted although he never knows when it ends.

The Beloved was a commando unit,able to work alone on any multiple tasks without the help of others.The world has taught him to grow up like that, to trust no one,to be always perfectionist,to set a high standard in everything,and to maintain “I can do it by myself” kind of attitude.Sadly,all of his ability comes with a terrible price, his lack of social and interpersonal skill.He like to be alone and stay in the shadow,watching people passing by.He keep his grief, pain and suffering to himself Nobody know what happened to him until suddenly they see him lying on a hospital bed, with a bloody arms and said “I’m okay,never been to better than this” or until suddenly he collapse in a bench with a pain in his face but he keep smiling & said “don’t worry,just an error in my system,it’ll better soon”.

The Beloved lack of social and interpersonal skill cost him greatly in many social situations.That’s why he spend most of his time alone in a solitary place.He decided to be alone not because he hate people,but because he not used to people or to life inside a group.He always had been an outsider for most of his life until now.He live alone and he die alone.People for him is a new experience.

The Beloved's wars were far from over although most of the people said that the war for his generation is already over.He himself was also tired from this war but sadly,he can’t quit now because he still has mission to do as a sweeper for his generation.And he just want to atone from his past sin,that maybe there is a salvation out there for his soul

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    Friday, June 15, 2007
    A Very – Very Weird Reflection : 1st Case

    Last Saturday before I go to Semarang for my courier job, I decided to escort my mother to one of my mother friend funeral preparation. It’s a good funeral preparation since he is a very good priest and preacher. There, I also saw beautiful phenomena on the sky that sadly I forgot to bring my Camera along.


    On the way home, while in the car, my though were thinking heavily on how to finish a game called “Lord of The Ring : The Battle for Middle Earth” (and I also enjoyed to watch the film on that occasion)……how I got to conquer Helm’s Deep, or what troop do I sent to Minas Tirith……and how can I get my hand on those beautiful Nazgul unit……


    I was in a very deep thinking until I saw on my right on the far of the road a figure clad with a black robe from its head to its toe, and wearing a white helmet  on its head…….and I spontaneously scream…. “oh my God…it’s a Nazgul!!!.......I see a Nazgul..!!!” ….(luckily….nobody hear me or pay attention to me) until finaly I realize that was not a Nazgul…. But it’s a woman, wearing black Burkha ( a Middle East  woman Moslem dress that cover them from head to toe and only save for its eyes so the wearer can see ) and a white motorcycle helmet. I also saw his suppose-to-be husband, wearing sorban and Middle East type of suit.


    Then I got this think in my head…..I recalled lately that many Moslem specially from a specific type of party and community like to wear those kind of suit as their identity and urge many Moslem to wear it also as a sign of their devotion toward Islam . I’m not disagree with their thinking or their habit as far as it is for themselves and they do that for themselves, but I hate to admit I hate how they urge other to follow their step as the only way to show the devotion toward Islam and God.


    If you ask me why I hate that, because for me Religion, God, and devotion toward it is depend on the people itself without any influence from other. Religion, devotion and fellowship with God for someone are different from the other even if they have the same religion. Moreover, everybody has its own culture. You can’t urge people to follow your own culture unless they decided to follow you willingly. You can’t say that your culture is the only way because everyone has its own culture and perception toward things.


    Indonesia also has its own culture, and its own perception of a religion. If I may recall, only Indonesian Moslem has a pilgrimage tradition to “Wali’s” Grave (The Wali was preacher of Islam in Indonesia culture from old) and pilgrimage to other holy site of Islam in Indonesia apart from pilgrimage to Mecca. Only Indonesian Moslem has a tradition of what we called “Islam Kejawen”, Islam with a traditional Hindu – Buddha culture approach and of course, only Indonesian Moslem has its own “Fasted, Mudik & Lebaran” tradition with its own special occasion food (I believe “Ketupat” and “Opor” only exist in Indonesian Moslem Iedul Fitri tradition).


    We can’t force people to follow our culture. As we can see, people have its own culture just like country & nation has its own culture. Indonesia is not a desert like Middle East. Indonesia don’t have camels as its nation animal. And the most important thing is, Indonesia is a country with a green pasture, tropical condition, full of water, and a very warm climate with weather situation about 21 – 31 degree Celsius that differentiate between Indonesia and Middle East.


    So, different situation, different culture, different people. We can’t life like Middle East people here. We can try, but then we will found ourselves on a difficult position to synchronize with our surrounding. The surrounding I’m talking here is not about people but the nature. If it hard for you to believe, go head and try it. at least is a very interesting thing for me to watch it for my new experiment.

    Posted at 6/15/2007 8:34:30 pm by The Beloved Lucifiel

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